SILENCE

Screams of Silence rise to a crescendo

Its shrillness pierces through to the ears

I try to run away

It follows me everywhere

There is a stillness in the air

Everything is still

My soul yearns for sound

Where is the humming, the buzzing, the singing

Where is everybody

Where are the voices

Silence is all enveloping

Its soothing voice beseeches me

And I resign to its omnipresence

It grows inside me

I've become silence...

IF ONLY

If only, you would have cared
For memories sake
For mine too
My heart is heavy
Mind is numbed
Answers have I none
If only, I knew why
Feelings faded
We drifted
Everything's jaded
If only, t'was true
T'was too good to be true but
You are happy in your world
I struggle to keep mine afloat
If only, I could ask
You act like a stranger
Not many moments have passed
It kills me
If only, t'was not so easy
The agony would be lesser
My pain I could've forgotten
If I knew you were mine for a moment
If only, I knew you did not mean
Words spoken and unspoken
Etched in mind still they'll be
For, you it'll remind me
If only you'd have looked back
I thought you would
I still think you will
Till then the hours stand still

Days would come and days would go
Memories would stay
Pain will too
And nobody would know

If only, I could wish you back
If only...

BROKEN DREAM

Moon was shining

I was sleeping in peace

The dream was beautiful

I was happy in sleep

Flowers were blooming

Birds were singing

World was as it could be

But then I woke up

And the dream had gone

T'was dark

Nowhere was the dawn

It could not be so

The dream had to be real

It felt so

But the darkness was engulfing

Making me gasp for every breath

And it began sinking

Illusion only twas

The night was always sombre

I feel lost

Blinded by the dark

There's nothingness all around

Silence screams so loud

There's a hole in my soul

I return again

But there are no complains

Even if this is my destiny

Life's always been an uncertainty

I stay up to sleep again

That dream might return again..

LET ME BLEED

As I lie awake, listening to its silent whimpers,
Striving for answers to its pungent prayers;
A drop of tear escapes my eye,
Remembering the days gone by.

Why did it have to make itself visible,
Fate would've been kinder killing it in the cradle;
Asking myself this with appall,
With my hands clasped I watch the fall.

Emptiness permeates all corners of its hallowed expanse,
Which, once were, consumed by the nectar of existence;
Assailed by thorns, its ethereal beauty ravaged,
Hopes quashed, dreams dashed, nothing salvaged.

I tried to pick its sundry pieces, as my hands shivered,
Few only could I manage, others were shattered;
I wanted to cry if only the tears had not run dry,
But this aint the moment, I've to be the catcher in the rye.

Time aplenty would be to mourn, its time now to say my final byes,
Unbearable seem the pauses between its long sighs;
With fondness would I remember its mysteries unraveled,
The innumerable times with its light, to paths, it guided.

Why did it have to be this way, I hear myself say,
Why did life look the other way;
Everything happens for a reason, so say the wise,
Is it reasonable to be asked to stand on the edge of a precipice.

As I ponder, with a tired voice for the first time, my heart, speaks,
With despaired and pained look, only salvation it seeks.
" You've always listened to me, once more pay heed,
All i ask is, Let me bleed..."